I think its time to start getting my shit together and actually talking to people, and finding a job, and saving money, and cutting back on drugs and alcohol, and being nicer to people, and doing my school work, and attending school, and working out, and keeping my room clean, and stop breaking promises, and going out more, and making more of an effort with family and friends, and deciding what to do after school, and sleeping and gaming less.
That really doesn’t sound fun, but if everyone else can do it, why can’t I?
I’m gonna make you proud of me and stop relying on you to always be with me and take care of me.
I’ll be better for you.
Find what you love and let it kill you.
Let it drain you of your all.
Let it cling onto your back and weigh you down into eventual nothingness.
Let it kill you and let it devour your remains.
For all things will kill you, both slowly and fastly, but it’s much better to be killed by a lover.”